James’ Blog

I haven't posted here in a long time. I've been kind of unable to, kind of blocked, waiting for the outcome of my college applications.

And now, here I stand in mid-step, on the edge of tomorrow, waiting for the inevitable conclusion of the first part of this journey. By tomorrow I expect to find out where to land my other foot. By tomorrow I'll have Chapman's decision, and I wanted to record this moment, the moment before the knowledge of my fate.

I'm so tense I could crack. I'll either be admitted at Chapman's Dodge College, or I won't. It's like the riveting conclusion to the best of crime dramas, with the amazingly happy ending and the miserable sad conclusion so close together, both of them as likely to happen as the other, fate hanging by a thin thread that's about to break.
(I hope I hope I hope)
If I do get it, if I'm admitted, the positive release of tension will be so intense, I can only guess at my immediate reaction. But I'll be happy, my immediate future will be known, and I'll be on my way in the best possible manner. I'll have won the first battle, and I'll be a champion. Champion of the World. Rocky Balboa's first victory.

And if I don't… well… the bleakness of the prospect exists only in contrast to the other option. In truth, if I don't get it, I'll still go to LA, and I'll still be on my way to fulfill my dreams. I'll be stronger for having fought an amazing battle, and I'll be victorious in other ways that are as important as the title of Champion, if not more. I'll have lasted till the final round, and stood there, toe to toe, with the best. Losing the battle, but winning the war of the road to my dreams. ADRIAAAAAAAAN!!!!!!